I would say that 2009 wasn’t the best year…but as I think more about it, I realize that it had some of the best of times, and some of the worst of times. It’s funny that so many things could fit into one year. How could a year that started out so amazing…plummet in the middle and disappoint at the end? Here is my look back at 2009…
We rang in the 2009 New Year at a friends house. The night before I found myself extremely sick and throwing up, but gathered myself together to show up at the party. I knew it was important to The Captain to be out with his friends, and since I was feeling better I was happy that I got to ring in the New Year with my new husband and friends.
I started this blog on February 26th of last year with a post about planning a dinner party. I think the blog has come a long way since then, and I am so happy that I stuck with it.
I LOVE being married. I honestly think it really suits me..so the beginning of the year was just perfect. Life moved forward, and I was so excited for what was to come in 2009. I knew that The Captain and I discussed trying to conceive at around our 1 year anniversary, and since I was truly ready for that, I was excited. It is my life’s goal to be a mother, so I could not WAIT for the time when we were both ready to start that journey.
I found out I was pregnant on June 5, 2009. It was the day before my friend’s bachelorette party, and at the off chance I was pregnant I wanted to test so that I didn’t get bombed and risk a miscarriage. I never imagined that I would see the words YES on the test…honestly I didn’t. I was told how hard it was to get pregnant and I expected at least 3 months of trying. But that day The Captain left for work, and I tested. I tested with out him so that he didn’t think I was crazy…but I looked and saw the words YES on the test. I sat and stared. I was shocked! Before this day I had so many ideas of how I would break the news to my husband that we were expecting, but at THAT moment all I could do was think “oh my god it worked!”. Those first few weeks were amazing. The Captain and I celebrated our 1 year anniversary in Newport Rhode Island. We enjoyed this time sharing “our little secret”. We were just so happy. The happiness continued when we told both of our families together. The future seemed so bright at that time. We shared in our joy with many at around what I thought was the 6 week mark…would I change it if I could? Probably not..I loved all the well wishes and happiness.
July…around half way through 2009 brought the sadness…the dark days of 2009. This is when I started to share things with you my readers. I regret the fact that you didn’t get to share in my happiness. I regret that you only got to hear about the sad. But sad I was. As much as my first year of marriage was so amazing…the beginning of my 2nd year was just so sad.
I am convinced that 2010 is the year that my dreams will come true. My dream of being a wife has been more fulfilled than I could ever imagine…and next I need my dream of becoming a mother to come true…hopefully sooner than later. So 2009 has had it’s share of ups and downs, and highs and lows. It’s sad that all the highs are overshadowed by the lows…but I guess it’s the nature of the beast. As 2009 comes to a close, I can only reflect and remember all that it was, and all that it wasn’t…and know that 2010 only brings nothing but hope and good thoughts of all that is to come.
2010 will be YOUR year and everythng will work out as it is supposed to!!! xoxo
I hope 2010 bring you everything you want and more!
2010 is going to be rocking! I can just feel it in my bones! (And we’re talking about some old bones here!)
Stopping by from SITS! What a ride for you! I am praying 2010 will be your year! I am so glad I found your blog! My blog is ‘one girl’s journey to the altar’ – I am getting married in March…and hope to have a follow-up blog of life ‘after the altar’ (don’t worry, I won’t steal your title! 🙂
I found your blog this year after the sadness you talk about, but I hope that you can get past it – this next year will be so much better, I just know it. 🙂
I’m working past it thank you…this year I plan to focus on all the good! 🙂
I am not one to talk about G-d and faith and so forth but I honestly believe that your prayers will be answered. I don’t know many women that are as caring and genuinely sincere as you are. You and hubby will see 2009 redeemed in 2010.
awww Thank you Sol! From your mouth to God’s ears! (or from your typing to God’s ears?? lol)
2009 was a jerk. 🙂 And I know ow it feels to have been through your darkest moments.
But? Things do find their way again. Sometimes slowly. Sometimes quickly.
I am pregnant now and I am just over the moon. And 2010 will be awesome for us. And I betcha 2010 will be awesome for you, too.
I look forward to reading more of your blog!
Happy New Year!