I’m not sure why, but for the past few days I have been extremely emotional. I have cried very easily, and just feel cranky. Maybe it’s because I haven’t slept well in a few days, maybe it’s because I’m pregnant and my hormones are all over the place, or maybe I’m just emotional. It’s not a sad type of emotional, it seems to be more of an overwhelmed emotional. I have so much running through my head at all times. As a matter of fact the problem has always existed (check out my post about becoming neurotic), I have always worried about a lot of things at once. It seems that I have kept all of my thoughts at bay until now. I kept them in the back of my head till we found out that we were having a little boy, and now that I am free to plan….it all comes pouring out. These are the times that I miss my martoonies….
I find that I am worrying about things that I have no business worrying about right now. Things like…will friends and family respect my wishes when it comes to this baby, what if I am tired in the hospital and want to limit my visitors but no one seems to care? What if Captain Awesome and I disagree on some major aspects regarding this baby…how do you deal with that? All of these things terrify me, and they aren’t something to worry about at least for another 5 months! But guess who is worrying now…me!
Another thing? I hate advice unless I ask for it. I think it’s just in my nature. That’s probably why I have never been able to work in an office type atmosphere. It drives me nuts when someone tries to tell me how to do things. But I am fully aware that when it comes to babies, everyone takes it as open season to put their two cents in. How will I deal with that? Why can’t advice only come when asked for? Yup another thing I worry about….
So as you can see I’m still pretty emotional. Lots to think and worry about. For some it may sound silly, but it is what it is. I’m looking forward to this weekend to hopefully relax and calm my head a bit…maybe it will shut itself down soon?? Maybe??