I Dreamed Of You

I Dreamed Of You

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Last year at this time I put on my happy face. I was happy and I had so much to be thankful for, but I wanted a baby. I wanted a brother or a sister for my son, and at that time my body was failing (that’s how I saw it) and I was sad. But now, a year later I get to look at my little girl and smile. She is what I dreamed of for so long. Now this holiday season she is here. It’s still surreal.

It seemed like so long ago that I was the Jen who wanted so badly to be pregnant. I didn’t know if or when that dream of a baby would come true. My son was my happiness during the holidays. This time last year I was reminded that the year before I was pregnant and soon lost that baby. That on top of the fact that in a years time I wasn’t pregnant again, and I began to wonder if it was in the cards for me.

But look at me now! I get to hold my baby girl in my arms. If I could tell anyone who wants a baby and is having trouble or someone going through a hard time that “this too shall pass”. I blogged in the past about what a difference a year makes and I am reminded yeet again. Sometimes I wish our future selves could tell us… “Hey…it will all be OK”, but we can’t. We just have to trust that we will end up where we are supposed to.

As I look at my daughter and my son I just feel so blessed, especially when I remember how far we’ve come. We took a long road to get here, but we are here…together. So I wish today’s Jen could’ve told last year’s Jen it would be OK. But that’s not the way it works…

Will I Remember

Will I Remember

I as talking to my sister and she was telling me about something adorable my niece had done. While listening I remembered that my little man had done the same thing and I couldn’t believe that I had forgotten about it! It seems so┬álong ago since he used to start backing down the stairs about

Dear Christian: 4 Years Old

Dear Christian: 4 Years Old

I say this every year, but I will say it again….how are you FOUR!? I thought this birthday would be easy but it wasn’t. As I look at you I see less and less of my baby and toddler and more of a little boy! I can’t help but reflect and look back on pictures

Goodnight My 3 Year Old Before You Turn 4

Goodnight my little boy on the night before you turn four. I just finished putting you to bed and it was hard. I didn’t think it would be, but it was. See, tonight you cried….sobbed actually because you said you want to still be three and a half and don’t want to be four. See

So Much To Be Thankful For

So Much To Be Thankful For

This year I have so much to be Thankful for! Let me rephrase…I have always had so much to be thankful for, but this year especially so. This year we welcomed our little girl into this world. Our family feels complete with her in it! I am thankful for my wonderful husband every day. I

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