Since I have been pregnant it seems that I have been neglecting my wifely duties. It started in the beginning when most foods other than cereal and fruit grossed me out, therefore cooking was a huge challenge. Then farther into the first trimester I was just so exhausted that by the end of the day the last thing I wanted to do was cook and clean. And now that I am feeling better, in the 2nd trimester, all I can seem to want to eat is take out and anything with the main ingredient of FAT! Not to mention that I still have no desire to clean. Where is that nesting instinct??? I’ve been such a bad wife!
Everyone says to enjoy pregnancy and to think about yourself because once the baby is here you will never again have the opportunity. So I take that advice very seriously. I feel like instead of wondering what my husband would want for dinner, I now just focus on what I want. What foods would make ME happy. When I’m tired I lay down. Even if that means that house doesn’t get straightened up at the end of the day. I sometimes wonder how I will do it once I am even more tired and have a crying infant stuck to my boob. I guess you just figure it out?
The Captain and I used to always have date nights. To be honest I can’t tell you the last time we had one. It’s not that we don’t spend time together…we actually spend a lot of time together….it’s just that our hanging out time isn’t the most “romantic”. Why? I don’t know? Like I said we eat dinner together every night, we watch our TV shows together, we spend the weekends together (most of the time with other people), so we aren’t lacking interaction. It just seems that his desire to want to “live it up” as much as possible before Pooh Bear arrives, and my desire to sleep leaves the romance department a little lacking.
Cleaning? Forget about it! I really, really really wish my nesting instict would kick in because a clean house would be great right now. Instead I just look around and panic about all the STUFF that will soon fill the house. When I think of it that way I become overwhelmed and choose to sit on the couch rather than make progress. Not the best battle tactic I know, but it’s all I’ve got right now.
So all in all I feel like I’ve been a bad wife. Am I selfish? Maybe? Is it normal? I sure hope so! Maybe, since I recognize it I can try to do something about it. I’d say Captain Awesome had a good whole year of my focus being purely on being a wife. The 2nd year was spent trying to have a baby, and the start of this 3rd year is all about me and Pooh Bear. Soon I will be out of the equation and it will be all about Pooh Bear. Time to start trying to be the Good Wife again!