If you asked me what I missed most about my life before becoming a mom I would quickly answer NOTHING! Life is perfect and so much better with my son in it. But I would be lying a bit…yes it’s wonderful and I am loving my life…but the honest answer is that I miss my naps and I miss sleeping till I CHOOSE to get up. I’m still so TIRED!
I have always been a girl that needs 8 or more hours of sleep. I knew that with a newborn I would be getting nowhere close to that, but now that my little man has been sleeping through the night I had hoped that I would go back to feeling wide awake. But the truth is that I don’t…I am still so tired all the time!
I am still trying to get used to waking between 6 and 6:30 every day. I don’t think I’ve woken up that early since high school, and all I can think about is that I will never get to sleep in again. Is that bad of me? Even on Mother’s Day I only slept till 8:30. Yes it was “sleeping in”, but not pre baby Jen “sleeping in”.
I nap when the baby naps sometimes, and I even nap WITH the baby, but it’s just not the same. I sometimes have trouble falling asleep because I keep thinking he’s going to wake up, and even when I do fall asleep it’s not the best nap. Not to mention that I always think about what I SHOULD be doing. Family offers to come over so that I could nap, and The Captain offers on the weekends, but I usually decline. I just can’t seem to sleep, so why bother trying?
I can’t ask much more of our little man. He goes to bed at 7 and sleeps till 6 or 6:30 (ok, it would be great for him to sleep till 7). He is a great sleeper! How can I complain?? I have it good right? I think this is it though in the sleep department, and I just have to get used to it. Will I get used to it? Am I destined to feel sleepy forever? Please say no….