I never in my wildest dreams thought I’d ever be the type of girl that wanted nights to herself. As a matter fact, through most of my 9 year relationship with The Captain I hated when he would leave me. But now..as we reach our almost 2 year wedding anniversary I find myself just wishing for nights that I can just lay on the couch..a great glass of wine in my hand..and my dog curled up in my legs. Just a time when I think about me and nothing else other than the lives of the characters on screen. Sometimes, a girl just needs some ME time.
If you told 22 year old Jen, that someday 29 year old Jen would sometimes prefer for her husband to go out without her just so she could sit home in her pajamas and bathrobe, watch television and go to bed early I doubt she would believe you. It doesn’t take much to make me happy. Some women need manicures, pedicures, massages or shopping trips to count as ME time…but not me! (although that is sometimes nice) I am just as happy at home, and prefer my couch!
I am one of the luckiest women in the world that I get to spend so much time with my husband. He comes home to spend lunch with me almost every day, we eat dinner together every night, we compromise and watch the same TV shows at night, and enjoy many of the same activities so our weekends are spent together. I would never ever trade any of that in for the world. He is my best friend, and I wouldn’t have that any other way. BUT….all this togetherness sometimes makes those times that I get to myself that much sweeter!
As I write this I am enjoying one of these nights. And as I did, I realized that once my dream of becoming a mom comes true I can’t imagine nights like this again. Even if I am lucky enough to grab a few minutes to myself, I would think that no matter what, my thoughts will always drift away to that little child that is asleep upstairs. Will ME time ever be the same again? Trust me, I would trade in all my ME time for that chance, but it’s weird to think how much it will change.
But all in all I have found that I am able to enjoy this time by myself. Maybe that means I’m growing up? Would I ever go to a movie myself? Let’s not get ahead of yourself! I could never do that, but I will admit that I am learning to at least enjoy some nights alone. Do I want to many?? No way! I still love my man to be home with me most of the time…but sometimes if you ask me what a perfect night looks like to me, I will tell you it’s home by myself on my couch! And I might as well enjoy it now, because I am reminded regularly to enjoy it while it lasts!