I have served my son his lunch almost every day for the last 5 1/2 years. Yes, we have struggled and yes it hasn’t always been great, but my job has always been to make sure he eats everything that I want him to. Now, with Full Day Kindergarten in the near future I am very well aware that my days of having lunch every day with my son are over. It may seem like such a small thing, and I of course have always taken it for granted, but when someone mentioned it the other day I became sad. Let’s be honest, everything about him starting Kindergarten makes me sad. We can add this one to the list!
Isn’t it silly that I can get so emotional over something as silly as lunch? As I sit here writing this I cried! I started to think back over each stage of his meals and how I nursed, then spoon fed and went from high chair to booster seat to chair! Now, I will look at the clock at lunch and wonder what is he eating? Who is he sitting with? What are they talking about? Is he happy? How did we get here so fast?
I keep reminding myself that it’s only a few extra hours in the day different than last year. Those extra hours are lunch, and Tessa’s nap. Not so bad right? Then he is home again! I looked back through pictures to find the ones I attached here. Look at this little man!!?? He’s come so far…gotten so big, and I have gotten to be with him all day through it all. Now….not so much. Now things change. I don’t do well with change….but it’s going to happen whether I like it or not! So don’t mind me while I wallow for a bit….or a lot. Change is a comin…and this mommy ain’t ready.