The end of summer can mean so many things to so many people. I feel like for me, this year it means something totally different than it has in the past. This year, it means the last summer as a mom of one. It means the beginning of the end of my pregnancy. It means that we will shortly get to meet our precious little girl. When I found out we were going to have a baby my due date of September 23rd was burned into my brain. And here we are….almost there!
The end of summer used to be a time where I would begin thinking about the dreaded winter. It meant soon it would turn cold. Gone are the easy day activities like the beach and pool, and soon enough we’d be stuck inside and I would be sad. But this year it’s not about that. This year I get to experience a new set of firsts with our daughter as the weather turns. Back in January when we found out we were pregnant September seemed so far away. I wasn’t even confident that I would make it this far in my pregnancy and now I find myself just waiting for my little girls arrival. It could happen any day!
The end of summer means back to school to most, and the same applies to us. Our little man will be starting 3 year old pre school this year. I remember last year when he started the 2 year old program I couldn’t believe I would be sending my little man off to school. Now this year, I am sad that I may not even get to be the one to bring him to his first day. Talk about mom guilt! I know..I know…there will be someone he loves that will bring him to school if I can’t, but that is not the point. I can’t help but worry that he will be angry and sad that the reason I can’t be the one to do it is because of his new baby sister. He will get over it but will I? I’m not so sure. The start of school is one week from today…only time will tell how things will play out, but I am nervous.
The end of summer brings us a new beginning this year. Not everyone can say that can they? I won’t lie and say I am excited for the cold to arrive, but I can say that I can’t wait for all the new things in store for our family. As my son goes off to school I will get some great one on one time with our daughter. As fall arrives I get to begin witnessing all her new firsts again. A time that seemed so far away at the beginning of 2014 is now here. Boy am I ready! (I think…)